so help me, sleep

unfocused. got to stay focused. hahaha tried to get a writing job in odesk a week ago and i got it, the only problem i have now is how to finish the task. so much for applying the job requiring me to write 20 blog entries/articles. ah, okayyy. i rarely even post stuff on my blog lately and now i have this assignment. aaahk i'm not really complaining. i'm just saying that i am very far from finishing the task and here i am blogging about this, then again distracted, still watching episodes of adventure time and even trying to watch dark shadows, if not only for boinky who woke up before i could even see 20% of the movie. hahaa okayyy i will stop now and go back to what im supposed to do...or am i not? now really feeling sleepy... i haven't even started my 4th plate, just studies and i just remember now that i haven't even bought my wires yet. hmmph. good luck for tomorrow. maybe ill just sleep now. before that, here's a photo of my supposedly major priority-turned-distraction-for-this-assignment. 

and who on earth would not be distracted  with this face? hmmhmmhmm :)

today is thursday and just a week to go dear tope will be home to celebrate his birthday with us! hooray for happybirthdays! hahaa i hope my excitement won't jinx any of whatever there is to look forward to. haaha anyway i already got a malas moment yeaterday when my 7 months worth of boinky memories went down the drain thankyou very much stupid nokia phone which until now hasn't been openlined. it suddenly went loco yesterday while i was waiting for the photos to load for viewing then suddenly the numbers of the files started to decrease until viola!: from almost 800 photos, it became 40 something?!?!?! how happy is that! i even tried to check the phone through the computer wishing that the files were still there somewhere in the memory card, but no, no, no. no files. bow! sheeesh. and the phone won't capture still shots but records videos...how weird is thaaat?!?!?! anyway, i will stop complaining now, the phone was a gift.heheee too helpless, i cried.hahaha

okay now, i still have pending stuff to accomplish, wishing i would be able to join Shell's 45th NSAC. crossing my fingers that i may be able to have my materials by the weekend considering the deadline's getting nearer very quick, first week of August. also, i hope to finish mee homeworks for this saturday's class and be able to finalize the product that i'll be uisng for the graphics class for monday.lalalala and most of all to be able to fix this little t-rex for the materials class. hooray! a lot of work to do! lord, please help me to be more organized with my time, because between the 1-2 days break from every class i get with my schedule, i still have to squeeze in little boinky and everybody knows she just can't be squeezed! she's top priority!!! hahaha and my she's growing up sooo fast, she's trying to stand on her own already, and sitting straight is a piece of cake! :) and she does these movements with her hands which im very excited to show her dadii when he gets home next week.

heeeello!!!

let the countdown begin! rarrr! says my faceless unfinished trex..hahaa i hope it will stand once it will be completely covered!

that Great Man

I never got a class under Mike Mende(poor me), but i sure see him very often in school in college especially that my friends were actually close to him. And funny when i still remember the first two memorable encounters with sir were both scoldings, first was when we were too noisy during PE while he had a class in AS, and the other was when my friends were crowding the duyan that might possibly break coz we were too plenty. But both were taken well. :)

I am remembering every little memory i have of that great person who has inspired a lot of people, especially the students. i knew SirMike from my friends, and i usually see his name on the books my friends read during our early years in college. Then we do see him everyday because he is always in UP everyday, especially when my friends hangs out at the UPdorm, and were close to him. I knew at least from my unconcious observations then that he was one of those few UP professors who deserved to be called one, who was passionate about life and what he was doing.

A few years back, sir mike was interested in making a book, and it was just quite amazing, of all the fine arts students he knew, i got to have a short conversation with this Great man about illustrating for the book. I don't know what happened then, but that was also the year when i got my dream job. Sayang it never pushed through. :(   but i think that certain happening gave me the confidence, that hey, someone not close to me actually thinks i can do this.

And then reading from a college schoolmates status last Sunday night, after all the father's day greetings on the news feed, saying that this Great man just passed away was the most shocking thing and definitely the saddest. Sir Mike will definitely be missed by all, he was an inspiration to all, and he has really done so much in his life. 

His last line to me was when tope and i saw him in ayala with his wife a couple of months ago, "magkita ra nya ta, kai ipang-uli man ang mga paintings.." with his usual smiling expression, i don't know if that were the exact words, but that keeps on playing in my head now, still at shock that he had already passed away. 

i hope to be able to visit SirMike's wake today with some college friends, at least to personally say goodbye and thank you to this Great man. 

REST IN PEACE Sir Mike Mende.you will always be remembered.

the straight sitting sixmonth

The past week was another wow for the little one. 

sunday,  6/10/12

Going to school and having to wait for teachers who'd eventually cancel the class, going back to the eye clinic to have my eye checked and buy the necessary medications for its treatment, at least there was something good about the week that was. Amadei was sitting up on her own already without us having to carry her to that position. she's even doing all she can to stay in that position. yeheyy! and yesterday was zzzeee best, she raises both arms to her sides to balance herself sitting up straight, with her back up, no longer slouching., and was successful in doing it! my, my! what a happy, proud mother i am.wahahaha.

Amadei  is also attempting to stand on her own by pushing her arms on meee belly while i am lying down beside her, supporting her body weight with it pushing her upwards so she can stand...though for now she's just semi-standing.heee

Excited for the coming months for new surprises from the little boinky!

dali.disney

was up early because of boinky, and since i have someone to help her go back to sleep my now-unsleepy eyes wanted to browse some reading. saw this from chuvaness and is just as amazed by the fact that there has even been a collaboration between two greats: Salvador Dali and Walt Disney.

congratulations

you have corneal ulcer. :(

doctor: one drop every 3 hours with no fail

just went to the eye doctor this afternoon and confirmed that this white dot on the black part of the eye, redness on the white and pain especially when exposed to extreme light happens to be that unfortunate eye condition. lesson learned: remove yerrr contacts before bedtime. i would not be allowed to wear my contacts for the next two months booo. it was a good thing that i went to the doctor just in time, or else the worst could happen. will be going back for a follow-up appointment this thursday. i hope maayo na ni ui.huhuhuu

by the way, i am officially a student again. unusual schedule, classes on wednesday and saturday? hahaha i still don't know if i would go to class tomorrow.

our friend the low tide

sometimes what you did not desire will give you good experiences.

ditsi, thank you for this one! it has been a long time since i went out for an unplanned trip to the beach

 

mud therapy: talking about sinking up to your ankles haha struggle~~

taking a tryc-ride to the other beach, boinky so ready to go 

i'm a happy biker. i haven't pedalled for a long time..
probably the last one was during lunchbreaks, artwork days.

and there we were.."oh no it's super low tide!"

but there's still water, so there's nothing to be sad about.
 and the sandbars were were the best thing that happened that day

Amadei was able to sit by the beach, 

if it was high tide we will be forced to to swim/sit by the rocky shore

with this we were able to bike as well..hahaha biking on water, and on the sand bars.

but then we have to go now.
thank you mother nature for providing us with this. :) this day was good.

photosby:genesisjava

stretchy attempt

remembered this one while clearing items from my desktop.hahaaaha a product of my fascination with basic after effects 3 months ago.

first summer together

this summer, me and dear cousin byettsie were both only able to go out twice, once in oslob and once in that pool resort in the north that is not worth mentioning. this would be due to our limited resources unlike dear sissie yobah whose weekends were always booked with getaways. our schedules were full for certain responsibilities and our pockets unable to fill-up for the needed expenditures.hahaaay.
enough of this blabber, what i want to talk about is how happy i am with the thought that my baby is unafraid of dipping into such bodies of water (beach&pool). during our trip last march in the south, she didn't even cry when we started going into the water neither did she when we were just at the shore where there were strong splashes of water. she even loved the wind blowing on her face. hahaha we were only forced to bring her back to the room when we realized she was already sound asleep while we were in the water. hahaaha okay. hooray for Amadei for she doesn't have a problem with the beach.

sleepy...splashes of water too relaxing for the boinky

and now, before the summer ends, we just had to go out and dip into some good ol water and sunshine. though it was a bit gloomy on our way to the not-so-far north, the entire time we were in the poolplace was kinda sunny. at our first attempt to swim, Amadei was crying her heart out only to realize that she was already hungry..haha bad mother. sorreyy, was tooo excited for her to get into the water. after she got her milk and short nap, we went back to the water and there she was, loving the water, kicking her legs, smiling.

boinky: [thumbs-up] we shall do this again mommi! :)

looking forward to more beach outings with the little one. please don't be like mommi who doesn't know how to swim. haha boo me.

boinkybusy

a week from now, my little one will be nearing her half a year's existence outside me tummy. wowoww! thank you lord for making me strong and patient and for everything else that has made me a better person[i think! walai mulalis!haha] because of the boinkyling.

after months of adjusting my bodyclock the sleepless nights aren't that bad anymore, and the little one has also been doing her part by being able to sleepback on her own when we do milk time in the middle of the night. her change in sleeping patterns have also been helpful for she sleeps in longer hours, so i get  extra time to bawi, hooray for amadei! and yes, my eternal eyebags for it would always be there whether i get enough sleep or not(darker circles), so amadei really has nothing to do with it, okay, i have embraced my panda eyes for a long time already.hahaha

boinkyroll

making the six-month update now? yes, i will be writing this now while my hands are in the mood to turn on the computer and type the words from my thoughts.

 thumbsucking[also loves to eat my arm and my shirt], loves the outdoors, will love swimming, attempting to crawl and sit, starting to eat her cereal and pureed meals, eyes following my actions when we eat, making sounds, trying to speak, saying mamama and some syllables, finally trying to reach for the hanging owls mobile, looking curiously around her, pushing her legs so that she could stand[of course with someone holding her], reaches for her toes and sometimes wanting to put it in her mouth, getting cranky when i change her clothes, still loves the camera, trying out formula, feet that are bigger the size of her shoe-socks, a dozen of out-grown shirts/onesies, drinking water, easier bath times, good smelling and kissable everywhere and more lovable than ever.

all of that is why i am boinkybusy, i can go all day locked in our room with the little one. only boinky gets tired being stuck in our room all day.hehee

thankyou for making mee mornings always smiley boinky. seeing your face first thing when i wake up will always be the perfect way to start the day. i love you.

boinky-two!

that boinky eyes and cheeks!

a week from now, little amadei will be turning 2months. oooh that kid with pudgy arms and legs that mommy so love to kiss. please be a good girl na boinky and help give mommy enough sleep this time. hahaha

TUMBLR?BLOGGER!

HAHAA..  NOW MY BLOGSPOT PAGE LOOKS LIKE A TUMBLR PAGE. TEEEHEE. WELL HELLO NEW FORMAT.. WILL BE TESTING THIS ONE UNTIL I GET BORED AND CHANGE IT AGAIN WITH ANOTHER LAYOUT..OR NOT. HAAHA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMADEI IMMANUELE

i was told that it will arrive sometime on the 22nd of December. noticing women i know who also gave birth before me in 2011, i was expecting mine to be earlier than the expected date. and whaddya know.. indeed it was.
nov.30  
since our house was under 'repair' for the past 2 annoying months i accepted my cousin's invitation to stay at her home until i gave birth. upon arrival, her youngest son greeted me with, "yey! december na ugma mugawas na c taublee!", while kissing my bump. i just laughed and told him that it is too soon for the baby to arrive. deep inside i also was not ready yet to experience labor or the whole birthing thing.haaa.

dec.1
oh hello, vertigo. feeling dizzy the entire morning. and ooh. i'm a year older. had a simple celebration at my cousin's with cousins. haaha. got to love'em cousins!!! still stayed at my cousin's.

dec 2
will be meeting with gayle ang lailalai..betchai absent again.hmph. supposedly going for my scheduled chek-up with my OB, but doctor unavailable. after first friday mass, had dinner with the ladies. gayle had socks for amadei.sooo cute! went home in banawa after dessert.

dec.3
schedule for check-up moved today. doctor told me to return next thursday for IE. okay. doctor told me it is possible i will be giving birth anytime.okay.

dec.4
didn't sleepwell at night. since i kept on waking up, i decided to pack my ready-for-the-hospital bag

dec.8
could be my last check-up before giving birth. when my OB was done with the examination i was told that ill be having labor later that day, and that i am so ready to give birth. i forgot what exactly was my reaction but i told the doctor isn't it too soon? i haven't been feeling any pains yet. called towpee for the bigbigbig news, went to church(immaculate conception day), had dinner at jollibee, went home, prepared my stuff, and when the pain i had been feeling since we were at mass was already unbearable, told my motherdearest that we have to go to the hospital.
and so i somehow had the longest night...was it. or was one of it.

checked in the hospital around 11pm.
was not even able to call ditsi na that i was already in the labor room..mother dearest did that for me na.

and yes i will say it again..this was a very long night. the contractions were as painful as my monthly dysmenorreah only multiply it by 100x or more.haha overr. but yes indeed it was crazy painful.
when will this end... huhuh

let's skip the agonizing contracions part.
or maybe because im becoming too lazy to type.hahaaa

dec.9
5:15am
finally! tadaaah! after countless pushes which i though were not helping at all, but woah they did, it was effective, i did my part very well, my little one finally came out! haahaaha
woah the hair!, i thought to myself.
"oh my god" were the words that came out from the kilig ol'me.
was that the thing that was growing inside me belly? hahaha too happy.:) then they wiped and took out the excess fluids from little boinky's nose and mouth and handed her to me chest.

wow! i am officially now a mother!

when i held the little one i saw the eyes that were not so me, but the lips and chin were that of my side. then after holding her maybe for a minute, i'm not really sure, they took her back to clean her more and put her on some clean clothes which thankfully  i was able to bring. sorry i forgot the receiving blanket, unpreparedness usually occurs to me, no wonder i usually have problems with my flights.hahaa anyhooo. skipskipskip the other painful part despite having anesthesia.hahaha

and so finally i was placed in nanay clothes, and was ready to be brought to my room. the nurse placed the little one on me chest again, shared to me about breastfeeding.

IT'S DONE! OUT FROM THE DELIVERY ROOM, MOTHER DEAREST WAS THERE WAITING FOR US THE ENTIRE NIGHT, NOW BEAMING WITH EXCITEMENT FOR HER NEW APO. :)

I.LOVE.YOU

THANK YOU LORD FOR THE SAFE, NORMAL DELIVERY, THANK YOU FOR THIS SPECIAL BOINKY. DEFINITELY THE GREATEST GIFT, THAT IS AMADEI IMMANUELE! :)

amadei room

in two days it will be december already which means the days get nearer and nearer for the arrival of this little thing inside meee tummy. weeeeh. here you are just a few weeks or what we will be seeing you.hahaaa ookay. since the entire house is such a mess, we made sure that you'd still have your own space where you'll be undisturbed from all the craziness beyond your door.haha.  and a part for the preparation for your arrival  little one here's our little gift. your daddy thought of having your room painted, and duh i couldn't agree more. finished it in two days last week.heeee. see you in december amadei!!! and i hope you'll love the owls. haha :)

october and counting

ooohctooober! and no it does not mean octoberfest, i'm not interested with alcohol these past months.nyahaha  anyway, yess it's october and in two weeks i won't have to wake up to my alarm and i would then be able to extend my sleeping time at least thirty minutes more.haaha yes my body clock gets up at 7:30 and it's already amazing for me to be awake at 9:30am or 10am, also for the reason that I'm such a light sleeper. yes it's a gift. hahahaa finals week will be next week, but that doesn't mean all requirements will be passed just next week. we just had our finals for our techniques class with a surprising "THIS WILL SERVE AS YOUR FINALS" whaaaaat?!!?!!?! anyway, same-same, i have no idea how to prepare for that class anyway..i just hope that charcoal drawing would give meeeself justice.hahaa and now, we are to prepare for a class exhibit that would open this friday.. my, my the very first exhibit that i'd be joining. hahaha still i hope the work i did won't suck. sneakpeek!!!hahaah 

anyway, i'd have to work on 2 exams for next week and an "ukay-art" that we were supposed to wear during exams day in art history.bahahah okayokay. and now i still don't know what to work on..any suggestions?

aaaah. i hope ill be able to visit the beach soon. sooner because i might not be allowed to travel far anymore.bleebleeblee. at least a nice view before my baby comes out. oooh amadei immanuele will be turning 7months in my tummy next week. :) hoping for a good feedback from my doctor by then. :)

it's a bird! it's a plane!

 IT'S A GIIIIRL!!!! :)

full blog entry to follow.hehehe. but for the meantime ill just share this scanned image of the ultrasound. and my what a "lihok" baby she is! hahahahaa. it's so great to finally see what's the little one doing inside making me feel those bumps and kicks. thank God the baby's on it's proper position. still have to think of the name though... :) also a december baby!

RIP iggy

drawn 7/31/2011..while waiting for ditsii

i gave him the name piggy when he arrived years back..i am not sure if i was still in highschool or was it early years in college. he was sooo cute and was fluffy that i could not think of any name but call just PIGGY. and since everyone was too lazy to call him so, eventually people ended up calling him iggy. maybe it really takes some effort for them to mention the P.heehe.
this morning my mom announced to me with a distressing tone in her voice that we lost Iggy. i thought she was referring to finding him dead at or front porch not moving because throughout the entire weekend he was unusually weak and tired...sooo unlikely because for over a week previously he was soooo 'active' with  that other dog at home whom i barely care. and i just thought he had enough activity for that week, maybe he needed to relax. he was lying behind the door throughout the weekend. was it a sign? tsktsk.
iggy actually died coz he got hit by a motorcycle according to the witnesses. at least according to my mom, iggy did not look as if he was run over by a vehicle or what. there was just blood on his mouth and that's it. i really was not able to see him anymore because by the time the news got to me, Iggy was ready for 'burial'.
Hearing the news i immediately called yobah[what i call my sister] about the news and not crying was not an option. hehe, i was wailing the entire time we talked and she told me she'd call back on our land line.
it's a pretty sad morning. i know i had been not so kind to iggy except during his puppy years..but i truly adore his fat neck..soo furry his collar seems to be too tight for him even if it's not, and many other little things. i will miss his "excited" look sometimes when he's sitting on our front porch with his tail waving left and right on the floor, as if he is wiping it. i'm sad coz i refused to bring him his food last night, i'm sad coz i was sooo mad at him last sunday for being sooo stubborn. i'm sorry gigoooy. :( i hope you will be well there in dog heaven. :) iloveyou.sniffsniff.

MURAKAMI EXCITED

when i saw a poster of this film in tumblr i rushed right away to check in youtube for the trailer! and waddya know there was a film made based on my most loved author, haruki murakami!! huwaaaaaw. got to watch the adaptation and see if they will be able to capture the murakami spirit into the film. i still need to get a copy of the book though.haahaha.. but really i'm so curious and thrilled to see a murakami masterpiece in film.

my unfluffy neighbor TOTORO

hayao miyazaki's animation has been enchanting me since i saw spirited away two years ago. his way of telling stories has always been so candid and there's always something about the characters in his animated films that captures my...i don't know how to explain it, basta im not so good with words, and if ever you've seen a miyazaki film and loved ityou'd probably kknow what i mean.haahaha since i got back in cebu and has all the free time to do movie marathons as i can, i downloaded most of miyazaki's films and planned to watching them all. too bad torrent's not really complete. anyway, i had this copy of my neighbor totoro since last year in my lappy and i just have to watch it again same as my other favorite, howl's moving castle.  being that he is with his two smaller copies, TOTORO is just sooooo KYOOOT!hahahaha i dunno, it just so happened that i already have several posts of totoro in my tumblr. and recently, i have been searching for totoro baby stuff over the internet and hoping i could get one...for free.hahahahaa
anyweeez.. since i'm only having 3 classes a week and has plenty of free time to play with wet paper and put them all together, after the very long weekend, aside from completing budi's belated birthday gift, i'm finally done with this!!!!

totoro with the gang

 my very own totoro 'action figure'.haahahaha i just like to call it though..it doesn't really do any action. it just sits and stares which makes it all sooo adorable. too bad it's not really as soft as the actual totoro but looking at it is sooo much fun.hahahaha i'm planning to make more..and since i just finished my phineas and ferb season 1 marathon, i'm planning i should make a perry the platypus paper mache as well! the perry with the stupid face of course, he's way more cuterrr with his "doesn't do much"-face.hahahahaa will start tomorrow or maybe tonight..we'll see.

not-sobigtummy schoolgirl

ohwaaw. it's already June. i wasn't able to update about my admission to school coz it has been an annoying process considering i have to receive inconsistent instructions going back to UP almost everyday during the last weeks of May.haaha anyway finally i got in and we had a few meetings last week and we met with our professors, i just have two coz two of my subjects has the same teacher and yesss i only have to take three subjects this semester. all morning classes, on mondays, thursdays, and fridays.harrharr. i wish i could do more than just going to my classes everyday to keep me busy..keeping me from missing toooo much of [warning: cheesy mode] chrissy.[see you in month and 2 weeks]boo.

haaha anyway we'll see maybe my sched is just okay since i have this bundle of joy in meee belly. and whattdya know...it turned 12weeks last week.haaha but i don't know if the computation is that accurate. i was not feeling good after we had the check-up last saturday. the doctor tried to see saying that at twelve weeks we would be able to hear the baby's heartbeat. using a fetal doppler stethoscope, she searched for a sound but nadaaa can't find it. ohno.. in my head what's going on heeere? my doctor told me that i should visit the next thursday and have another check-up, if still there'd be a problem hearing the baby's heartbeat, then i should get an ultrasound. boohoo. i don't know.. i'm just praying that the baby's fine and normal and whatever that was..i hope it's nothing that would lead to a problem. lately my body's responding pretty great. i don't vomit that much anymore, my appetite's better..my only agony is looking for pants/shorts/skirts that would fit my waistline. the doctor asked me if ever i experienced cramps in my tummy or any spotting, there's none of these i had since my check-up the month before. that's why there is no reason for us to expect any problems with the pregnancy.huhu.

now to a brighter side. i have just had three classes since last week and i can say for now that i did not regret making my decision to quit my job and come home. i don't know maybe it's just the start but i have a feeling the classes i'm taking this time are wayyy different from what i had few years back. maybe my older age contributes to this feeling?hahaaha i think i have more drive to learn now than before.hahahaa
yes everything did not really go according to plan but maybe in this way it will be better, it might be a tough one but i guess it's time for me to take something like this BIG.hahaa goodluck to me and may i have good health always. harrrharr.mustnotgetsick!!!